Marriage Fails

Excerpt: Journal Entry January 10, 2008
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I know somehow why marriages fail.

It starts with waking up in the morning. Waking up in the morning at early stages of relationship is a pleasant experience. You greet your partner "good morning" and smile. She happily returns it with a knowing smile, almost a grin. You'll both smile thinking about the same thing, either it be the wild sex you had before sleep, or the romantic dinner date you were in before that, or just the plain thought that you slept, literally, with your partner.

But as you both go on, waking up doesn't go as well as you have been used to. There are more frowns than smiles. More arguments than smiles. It is harder to smile; but maybe it is because there was no romantic date or wild sex before sleeping, or the idea of sleeping with the person you wake up to doesn't seem to as good as you thought it was before. That frown that woke you up turns both your day into a wreck. Just like how you weaken at midday without breakfast, you weaken at mid-relationship without proper "good mornings".

At the end of it, you'll start thinking that maybe, just maybe, you've been fooled. This isn't what I was promised!, you tell your self. And just how mad were you the last time you bought a DVD from that turbaned guy telling you it was "clear", only to find out at home that you've been had? And you become mad - no enraged - and suspicious. And you start to nitpick. Find anything that might not be what you were promised. And you hate every little thing you find.

And from there it is easy to see how things go down the drain. And you wonder if this was a natural progression. Does everybody go through this? This, this horrible, horrible feeling that churns inside your tiny little heart? Suddenly you already do not wonder how this could easily account to maybe half the broken marriages there are. How do they resolve it?

And you remember. They don't.